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Chapters of my roller coaster life!


Do you know that feeling?
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I'm not sure if you know that feeling.

The feeling where everything seems to feel just like yesterday.
The feeling that sends you walking down the memory lane.
The warm, fuzzy feeling that puts a smile on your face.

I was in Velvet last night.
With familiar faces around me.
With really good music.
I had a really good time.

Yeah..I had that feeling last night.
Nothing over the top.
It was just nice.

PS - Sometimes, all you need is one touch. Just one touch.
 


Life is such....
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I just attended  an ex colleague's dad's funeral earlier today.
I have to say it's not easy .....even if you don't know the deceased.
Looking at the family, grieving...it just tugs at my heart strings.

We always say that life is short, live it right.
I wonder if we all really walk the talk.
Exactly how many of us really live our life to the fullest?
Exactly how many of us live everyday like it's our last?
Seriously, I'm really trying very hard to live life the way I think is the fullest.
I guess you can say that sometimes I'm confused as to what is the fullest.

Well....
As long as I have the chance to wake up every morning with the sun on my face.
As long as I have the chance to be around the people I love.
As long as I have the chance to tell the people around me how much I love them.
As long as I have the chance to smile and be happy with what I have so far...
I think I've lived life to the fullest.

 

 



 


New beginning!
[info]numerodix
Hello.

I finally found that small little part in me to start running. Regularly that is.
I MUST and WILL make it a point to run at least 3 times a week.
It feels quite good actually, to run and sweat it out.

The Brother and I did just that last night.
He took his mountain bike and then I put on my almost forgotten pair of mi adidas.
We decided to head to the indoor stadium and check out the waterfront.
It's so much better to run at night!
I took the route with lesser vehicles - which also mean it's more dangerous.
But I have my "bodyguard" nearby showing off  his mountain bike so it was alright.
We intend to make this our as often as possible routine - like I mentioned earlier, at least 3 times a week.
Nice.

The funny thing is...my horoscope on elle.com told me that I will find a new beginning this week.
And I honestly believe I've found it! 

Remember my randoms on my previous post?
Well...here we go.

Random 1 : "How would I like to meet my boyfriend?"
Ideally : In a book store, where we reach out for the same book and start the standard courteous drama.
" Oh, please...go ahead. No no...you first, please...." Then we'll both laugh ourselves silly and proceed to introduce ourselves!

OR

I'll be on a bench at the park one cool morning reading my book and enjoying my hot cup of latte.
Then this guy would come sit at the other corner of the bench, smiled and nod when I look his way.
After 10 minutes or so, we both look up and realize that we're reading the same book!
( It'll be nice if he's holding a cup of latte too..... )

Realistically : There's no such thing as the perfect way! I'll be lucky if I can even find the time to meet someone!

Random 2 : The word "soul mate"
I personally think that having a soul mate is one of the most beautiful thing in the world.
Someone who somehow have this telepathic thing with you.
Someone who somehow know what's running through your head.
Someone who somehow have this ability to make you laugh or cry.
Someone who somehow - in weird ways - would show that they care.
Someone who somehow - miraculously - be there for you even when they are not physically there.
Someone who somehow can drive you up the wall so high that you could kill him/her.
Lastly, someone who somehow - no matter what -  would hold your hand and walk on this life's journey.

The weird thing is, this someone may not be the person you marry.
Well....you'll probably grow old together but not the "marriage" way.
You'll do it the "soul mate" way - as per above.
I think I'm pretty lucky - I think I may have found mine. *smile*

A long post again. Damn.

Tahdah....

What a weekend!
[info]numerodix
My nose bled on a beautiful Sunday morning.
Like really bled.
Those that trickle down your face type.

I'm not exactly sure why and how it happened but I guess it's the herbal chicken I had on Saturday evening.
I ate the whole chicken - except the breast part and I finished the soup, every drop of it.
So I figured I got "over-heated" and my body couldn't take it.

Oh well...no herbal stuff for me for the next few weeks. *shrugs*

Random 1 : The Brother asked me a weird question today.
" How would you like to meet your boyfriend?"

Random 2 : Miss Energizer Bunny mentioned the word "Soul mate" today.
It's a nice word isn't it.

I'll think about these 2 random topics and elaborate more on it on my next post I guess.

Tahdah... 

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It's been 5 months! *shocked*
Well...not that shocked actually.
I KNOW that I've neglected my blog. TOTALLY.

So...here I am.
I've got a lappie now so I seriously hope that I will blog on a more regular basis!

So....what have i accomplished in these 5 months?
Too many to mention here! But I'll try.

Let's catagorize my journey in these 5 months.

WORK

There are major changes in my course of work.
To cut a long story short, I've been given the opportunity to grow and at the same time learn new stuff.
Having said that, the change comes with it's fair share of stress and headaches.
But i'm happy to say that I'm coping and so far so good. ( I hope )
Then I have my bunch of ever active "children"!
They are my greatest source of strength at work. *laugh*

LIFE

I finally hit the big 3 this year!
It's really no big deal actually but somehow, I do find some changes in me.
Had sort of a 3 day celebration. It's good to have friends around you huh?
Well....not when they make you drink some PEPPER VODKA and insist that they  
give me a birthday ride in the round bungy thingy at Clarke Quay.
But I have no complains.  I have good people around me. *smile*

Then I did something out of the ordinary.
I took 1.5 months of unpaid leave. Yup....1.5 months.
And it was good. Really good.
Good for my body. Good for my health. Good for my soul.
Well...good for my siblings too! Cause I'm like a maid to them! 
I cook, clean, wash the toilet too! BUT.....I loved every moment of it.
Well...I won't complain much because I got to travel. 
I did Macau ( this is for free! Teambuilding! Hah ), HK ( overdosed of it actually ) and Cambodia!
I loved Cambodia! It was beautiful... *in bliss*

LOVE

I get loads of love!
From everyone around me! All the time, every waking moment!
Everyone except "that" special someone.
So no, I am still not seeing anyone. *laugh*
I am NOT fussy. ( everyone, stop saying that I am )
It's just that....I dunno...I cannot explain it either actually!
Life works in funny ways, that I have learned.
So I'm just gonna sit back and let life unfold right before my eyes! 

I've said this a million times but I shall say it again.
Life is good for me now. Really good.
I have everything to be thankful for.
I'm grateful that He listens to me every night.

I have so much more to say here but at the same time, I don't want this to be an overbearing post.
So I shall leave it for now.
And I will be back here again! I promise.

Tahdah...

PS - I'm watching Private Practice now and I like it. A lot actually.




 


Time Really Waits for No Man huh....
[info]numerodix
By now, I seriously think my apologies do not work here anymore.
So, I shall not waste time in saying I'm sorry for not blogging on a higher and better frequency note.

Life has been pretty much the same since I last blogged.
( Though it may change soon... *wink* )

I have made some major decisions here and there..
These decisions would probably change my life but I'm game for it.
Honestly, I'm not sure if I have made the right decisions but after sitting on it for the longest time,
I think I have to do this.

I am embarking on a journey that does not promise me anything at the end of the road.
This journey does not guarantee a light at the end of the tunnel.
But what this journey can give me is indescribable.
It is something that money cannot buy.
What ever this journey brings me is for life and I shall keep that in mind.

It was really warm last night and I couldn't sleep.
So, I decided to go through my most prized possessions - photographs and beautifully hand written letters.

As I read every letter - I could feel all the memories come flooding back to me.
All the letters were dated 1998 !!
These letters were written by very special people namely my sisters, my godsister and my girlfriends back home.
I didn't realized how much I was treasured and missed.
Every line I read brought tears to my eyes - it was tears of joy and silly-ness of course.
The things we say when we were younger. *laugh*

Then there were photographs.....dated 1993/ 1994.
God...I didn't realize how time fly by us and we don't even feel it!
I was soooo young back then ......
The eager beaver face...the innocent smiles and laughter.

Then I saw a photograph -  a photo that speaks a million words.
It was a photo of myself and my first boyfriend. ( close ones would know who he is )
I swear I could feel all that lost love growing in me all over again when I looked at that photo!
We were so young...happily in love, oblivious to what's ahead of us. ( I think we were like....17 years old in that photo )
You could just see it in our smiles.
How can one look at a photo like this and not smile and reminisce?

We had 8 years together and like any normal couple,
we have our fair share of ups and downs.
Our families were entwined ( we still are, by the way... )
I thought that this was it.
I will marry this guy.
We will have kids and grow old together.
But I guess God has his plans.
Fate wasn't on our side and we went separate ways.
I've always believed that everything happens for a reason.
And I was right.

We are good friends till now.
We have this beautiful friendship.
And both of us would not be what we are now if not because of our break up.
So, it's not all bad.
We will still grow old together - except it's in a different mode.

As I sat there on my bed last night,
it dawned on me that time really waits for no man.
Time flies - we all know that.
But how many of us seriously would sit down and think about it.
It doesn't matter where we are and what we do,  our days will turn into months and then years.
Before you know it, 10 years have passed!!
Time doesn't stand still for us to make decisions OR to weigh what's right and wrong.

I went to bed a happier and lighter person last night.
Simply because I know I HAVE made a decision.
And honestly, who cares if it's right or wrong.
I think it's already a privilege to have a chance to at least make a decision.
And for that - I'm thankful.

Life is good, for now - work NOT included.
[info]numerodix

Hey.

I'm quite impressed with myself.
Blogging again after a week is not too bad huh?

Life is good.
Seriously, it is. 
But of course, nothing lasts forever. I know that.

I had the privillege of spending time with my close ones the past week.
Well, looking at the fact that I work odd hours with weird off days, 
it's pretty tough to tie down specific days to meet my buddies.
So when the opportunity comes up, I'm just thankfully happy.

Had dinner with the gang last Friday. 
Mr. Woodcock couldn't make it because he went for a short getaway to KL with his girlie. 
So it was just us - the usual bunch. 
Oh, with Mr. G as well. He was back in town for the weekend. ( with a "purpose" )
We were all quite stuffed when Mr G went like : 

" Eh, would you rather be in a tub filled with rats or filled with shit?" 

You should have seen all our faces. 
We just had dinner! A good one for that matter!

I very quickly went " Definitely shit. I hate rats! "
Then one by one, all the answers came out around the table.  

Mr G : " Then would you swallow horse piss or your own vomit?"

By this time, we were all cracking up, trying to think of the best possible answer! 
It was a good night, really. 
Though I didn't join them for drinks there after, it was still good.

Of course, time with the BIMS are good too.
We see each other almost every other day.
The best thing is, we always have something new to laugh about! 
Something new to bitch. 
The word "routine" does not exist in our vocab.

OH, then I had a chalet just this past Tues.
I was drained, tired, exhausted but I was happy.
It was a pretty successful one cos most things turned out well.
I've some pics but it's with one of my "kids" - I'll post them later.

We're hanging out at Mr Wallaby's place again this Sunday.
I'm going to be their cook for the day! 
The gang will come by for dinner and they even requested for their own favourite dish! 
I'm just looking forward to Sunday.

Then of course I have my Bintan trip!! YAY YAY YAY! 
Exactly a week from now.

So, you see.
Life is good. For now.  
Nothing beats being around friends, people you care about .
( Even if it means talking bout shit and piss after dinner ) 
Seriously, it's priceless.

* Notice that I didn't mention a word bout work *
*chuckle*


I'm not sure what's a good title...
[info]numerodix
Hey there.

As written above, I'm not sure what's a good title for this post.
I just felt like bloggin - random stuff.

I've been missing in action for quite a while now - was sick, as in really sick.
I didn't feel like doing anything. ( that include work but lan lan, no choice )
Nose was stuffy and clogged.
Nasal voice with certain words going out of tune whenever I talk. 
Head was pounding and dizzy sometimes. 
Went to 3 different doctors and the last one finally did the trick! 
She cured me!! 
Plus, she scheduled an appointment at SGH for my scan - my most dreaded and talked about brain scan.
So for all those who have been bugging/nagging/pushing me to have it done, it's SET! 
I'm only waiting for 17th April patiently.

OH! 
Talking bout mid april, I'm going for a holiday!! YAY! 
Am heading to Bintan for a 4 days 3 nights getaway and I can't wait.
We've booked a 2 bedroom villa and there will be 6 of us.
I heard there are hammocks by the pool...................I'm dying to just laze my days away there! 
But then again, with 5 other people - my girls to be exact, I'm just thinking if it's 
possible to have 4 peaceful days with them. Hmmm...
Oh well, we'll see...what's life if there's no BIMS in it right?! 

I was reading this blog the other day and that particular blogger was going through this tough phase.
The don't - know - what's - ahead -and - life - sucks phase.
Yeah...we all know that phase.
I'm sort of going through that now.
Not the life sucks part but more of dunno what's ahead.
Those close to me would know that I have some plans down the pipeline. 
And I try blardy hard to get it all in place.
Then as if life is not messy enough, I found out that I will be working on a project at work that 
would bring me to HK in August.
I'm not sure if I'm up for it. As in I don't know if I will be here long enough to complete it. 
And if I don't, the last thing I want is to have people perceive me as irresponsible...
Like a hit and go...start it and then leave it hanging. 
And then on the other hand, I don't want this whole project thing to be the reason I stay on in this country! 
I'm aging......rapidly mind you.
I wanna do stuff that would bring me satisfaction....
Stuff that would make me grow old knowing that I have indeed lived life! 
And these past 10 years DEFINITELY DID NOT give me that kind of satisfaction.
( well...put aside the fact that I've met super amazing people in these 10 years lar.... ) 
Damn...you know what I mean right....
Oh man, I'm such a whiner all of a sudden.
But I'm not whining! I'm just ......voicing my thoughts in words!  Hahaha...
*sigh*

Then I have a "CASPER" in my house for the past 3 weeks.
When I say Casper, I don't mean it as a friendly ghost. 
I'm not sure if it's friendly but I do know that it's been wanting a lot of attention from us.
My toilet flushed on it's own - at wee hours ok.
Then there's the rattle of my room's door knob. Plus the knocking. 
Then my kitchen door opens and closes on it's own. 
Then there's my bathroom tap running - like as though someone's bathing. 
All the weird happenings!! 
We finally did a ritual and so far, things have been back to normal.
I'm only praying that it wont come back again.
Or any other "CASPER" for that matter.

My life is a never ending roller coaster ride. Seriously.
So many stories to tell.
Now maybe I know why people love to hear me talk. 
All the spew of nonsense and stories - enough to make a movie man. 

OK! 
Enough of ranting and babbling. 
I shall wait patiently for my Bintan holiday.
I always have verbal diarrhoea after a few weeks of not blogging.

Till the next time I blog - tahdah.

A not so nice Phase
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I'm sick. Again.
I've been wondering if it has got to do being a "Horse" this year.
Bad year. Bad luck. Bad this and that.
I was sick on the 16th of Feb and here I am again.
Worse this time.

Haven't been feeling myself lately.
So many things happened that makes me wonder, "What is this world coming to?"
*sigh*

My MCs enabled me to just lie in bed, thinking bout life.
I can feel my body breaking down to bits but my mind just wouldn't let me rest.
So there I was, lying in bed with my mind wondering - both good and bad stuff.

All the what ifs, buts and maybes.
It's frustrating isn't it?
When you know you can't turn back time and alter some decisions.
When you know you should have done this instead of that.
Oh well, like I've always said "everything happens for a reason".
I believe in it so I shall let it unfold in front of me.

Well, my life is not all bad.
I've great friends and amazing people around me.
That, I have so much to be thankful for.
Mr Wallaby and his Significant Other ( I haven't found a name for her yet. I better do.),
they have been nothing but sweet.
They offered their place and company - wee hours in the morning, mind you.
All because of a simple msn nick - which basically translate into me being miserable.
So there I was, at 2am - watching tv in a hot pink,super comfy tv room complete with 2 good companions!

Then I have Miss Foodie - who made me ginseng drink!
Though I've always cringe at the smell of it, I drank it all up!
Not at one go but at least I finished it. Haha..

It's a horrible phase I'm going through now.
It'll pass, I hope.
I noticed that whenever I'm faced with setbacks, miraculously I always get through it.
Faith. And hope. I need to live by these.

For now, I'm just thankful that most of my prayers have been answered.
I can only hope that THE ONE ULTIMATE PRAYER will soon be heard too.
*hopeful*

Nostalgic....*sigh*
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I'm at work - on my lunch break and hey, decided that maybe I should just blog.

Feeling a little light headed - came down with a minor flu this morning.
Not having a water heater at home is really sometimes quite depressing.
It was raining when I woke up this morning and I was dreading my bath! 
But I can't possibly not bathe and head to work right so yeah, I was like this 
worm "wriggling" in super fast pace when the first few splashes of water hit me! 
By the time I got out of the shower, I was sneezing all the way.

Anyways, back to my subject, " Nostalgic".
I just finished reading Miss Tai Tai's blog.
It brought back memories when I saw the pic of Central Park and everything other pic actually!

Though I wasn't in NY for long, the stay there was definitely memorable.
Walking down the streets would automatically put a smile on your face.
I remember my super duper "walkathon" when I was there! 
I don't think I ever walked so much in my life ever.
But it was good. 
Seriously, you don't know what's in store for just around the corner.
Contrary to what most people say, the Americans are pretty nice actually.
At least to me, that is.
I get greetings and smiles from people on the street. 
Sales staff were pretty decent too.
Even the Hispanic guys behind the sandwich counter was sweet! 
( Well, maybe because I was wearing my very nice robe from the hotel when I grabbed my sandwich )

*sigh*
I'm not sure why I'm feeling NY NY today.
Maybe it's because I'm turning 30 plus I'm prolly down with the Sex and The City syndrome.
* you get the drift ya - 30ish year old women in NY. Endless roller coaster rides - nice.
 
I think I should mark today as Feel Like Running Away to NY Day. *shrugs*

Have a good weekend.
Tahdah.




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