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I'm not sure if you know that feeling.

The feeling where everything seems to feel just like yesterday.
The feeling that sends you walking down the memory lane.
The warm, fuzzy feeling that puts a smile on your face.

I was in Velvet last night.
With familiar faces around me.
With really good music.
I had a really good time.

Yeah..I had that feeling last night.
Nothing over the top.
It was just nice.

PS - Sometimes, all you need is one touch. Just one touch.
 

I just attended  an ex colleague's dad's funeral earlier today.
I have to say it's not easy .....even if you don't know the deceased.
Looking at the family, grieving...it just tugs at my heart strings.

We always say that life is short, live it right.
I wonder if we all really walk the talk.
Exactly how many of us really live our life to the fullest?
Exactly how many of us live everyday like it's our last?
Seriously, I'm really trying very hard to live life the way I think is the fullest.
I guess you can say that sometimes I'm confused as to what is the fullest.

Well....
As long as I have the chance to wake up every morning with the sun on my face.
As long as I have the chance to be around the people I love.
As long as I have the chance to tell the people around me how much I love them.
As long as I have the chance to smile and be happy with what I have so far...
I think I've lived life to the fullest.

It's been 5 months! *shocked*
Well...not that shocked actually.
I KNOW that I've neglected my blog. TOTALLY.

So...here I am.
I've got a lappie now so I seriously hope that I will blog on a more regular basis!

So....what have i accomplished in these 5 months?
Too many to mention here! But I'll try.

Let's catagorize my journey in these 5 months.

WORK

There are major changes in my course of work.
To cut a long story short, I've been given the opportunity to grow and at the same time learn new stuff.
Having said that, the change comes with it's fair share of stress and headaches.
But i'm happy to say that I'm coping and so far so good. ( I hope )
Then I have my bunch of ever active "children"!
They are my greatest source of strength at work. *laugh*

LIFE

I finally hit the big 3 this year!
It's really no big deal actually but somehow, I do find some changes in me.
Had sort of a 3 day celebration. It's good to have friends around you huh?
Well....not when they make you drink some PEPPER VODKA and insist that they  
give me a birthday ride in the round bungy thingy at Clarke Quay.
But I have no complains.  I have good people around me. *smile*

Then I did something out of the ordinary.
I took 1.5 months of unpaid leave. Yup....1.5 months.
And it was good. Really good.
Good for my body. Good for my health. Good for my soul.
Well...good for my siblings too! Cause I'm like a maid to them! 
I cook, clean, wash the toilet too! BUT.....I loved every moment of it.
Well...I won't complain much because I got to travel. 
I did Macau ( this is for free! Teambuilding! Hah ), HK ( overdosed of it actually ) and Cambodia!
I loved Cambodia! It was beautiful... *in bliss*

LOVE

I get loads of love!
From everyone around me! All the time, every waking moment!
Everyone except "that" special someone.
So no, I am still not seeing anyone. *laugh*
I am NOT fussy. ( everyone, stop saying that I am )
It's just that....I dunno...I cannot explain it either actually!
Life works in funny ways, that I have learned.
So I'm just gonna sit back and let life unfold right before my eyes! 

I've said this a million times but I shall say it again.
Life is good for me now. Really good.
I have everything to be thankful for.
I'm grateful that He listens to me every night.

I have so much more to say here but at the same time, I don't want this to be an overbearing post.
So I shall leave it for now.
And I will be back here again! I promise.

Tahdah...

PS - I'm watching Private Practice now and I like it. A lot actually.




 

Hey.

I'm quite impressed with myself.
Blogging again after a week is not too bad huh?

Life is good.
Seriously, it is. 
But of course, nothing lasts forever. I know that.

I had the privillege of spending time with my close ones the past week.
Well, looking at the fact that I work odd hours with weird off days, 
it's pretty tough to tie down specific days to meet my buddies.
So when the opportunity comes up, I'm just thankfully happy.

Had dinner with the gang last Friday. 
Mr. Woodcock couldn't make it because he went for a short getaway to KL with his girlie. 
So it was just us - the usual bunch. 
Oh, with Mr. G as well. He was back in town for the weekend. ( with a "purpose" )
We were all quite stuffed when Mr G went like : 

" Eh, would you rather be in a tub filled with rats or filled with shit?" 

You should have seen all our faces. 
We just had dinner! A good one for that matter!

I very quickly went " Definitely shit. I hate rats! "
Then one by one, all the answers came out around the table.  

Mr G : " Then would you swallow horse piss or your own vomit?"

By this time, we were all cracking up, trying to think of the best possible answer! 
It was a good night, really. 
Though I didn't join them for drinks there after, it was still good.

Of course, time with the BIMS are good too.
We see each other almost every other day.
The best thing is, we always have something new to laugh about! 
Something new to bitch. 
The word "routine" does not exist in our vocab.

OH, then I had a chalet just this past Tues.
I was drained, tired, exhausted but I was happy.
It was a pretty successful one cos most things turned out well.
I've some pics but it's with one of my "kids" - I'll post them later.

We're hanging out at Mr Wallaby's place again this Sunday.
I'm going to be their cook for the day! 
The gang will come by for dinner and they even requested for their own favourite dish! 
I'm just looking forward to Sunday.

Then of course I have my Bintan trip!! YAY YAY YAY! 
Exactly a week from now.

So, you see.
Life is good. For now.  
Nothing beats being around friends, people you care about .
( Even if it means talking bout shit and piss after dinner ) 
Seriously, it's priceless.

* Notice that I didn't mention a word bout work *
*chuckle*

I'm at work - on my lunch break and hey, decided that maybe I should just blog.

Feeling a little light headed - came down with a minor flu this morning.
Not having a water heater at home is really sometimes quite depressing.
It was raining when I woke up this morning and I was dreading my bath! 
But I can't possibly not bathe and head to work right so yeah, I was like this 
worm "wriggling" in super fast pace when the first few splashes of water hit me! 
By the time I got out of the shower, I was sneezing all the way.

Anyways, back to my subject, " Nostalgic".
I just finished reading Miss Tai Tai's blog.
It brought back memories when I saw the pic of Central Park and everything other pic actually!

Though I wasn't in NY for long, the stay there was definitely memorable.
Walking down the streets would automatically put a smile on your face.
I remember my super duper "walkathon" when I was there! 
I don't think I ever walked so much in my life ever.
But it was good. 
Seriously, you don't know what's in store for just around the corner.
Contrary to what most people say, the Americans are pretty nice actually.
At least to me, that is.
I get greetings and smiles from people on the street. 
Sales staff were pretty decent too.
Even the Hispanic guys behind the sandwich counter was sweet! 
( Well, maybe because I was wearing my very nice robe from the hotel when I grabbed my sandwich )

*sigh*
I'm not sure why I'm feeling NY NY today.
Maybe it's because I'm turning 30 plus I'm prolly down with the Sex and The City syndrome.
* you get the drift ya - 30ish year old women in NY. Endless roller coaster rides - nice.
 
I think I should mark today as Feel Like Running Away to NY Day. *shrugs*

Have a good weekend.
Tahdah.

*exhausted*

It’s Christmas again!

God, time flies.

It’s the time of the year again where:

-        every 5 steps you take in a shopping mall comes with a spew of vulgarity.

-        the queue at the ladies’ is comparable to the infamous Hello Kitty saga.

-        road rage is brewing at every part of Orchard Rd because of the all those silly cars who would blardy slow down to see the Xmas lights.

-        you crack your head thinking bout pressies for your buddies.

Most important of all, it’s a time where I SERIOUSLY am jealous of all the shoppers in the mall, happily spending money at my store while I skip and run like a crazy woman getting stuff for them!

Not fair, TSK….

But then again, I’m not spending money!

So it’s a good thing right?

Oh well, it’s how you look at it actually….to each it’s own.

*sigh*

Work Is alright. Chaotic but fulfilling.

Nothing beats the feeling of hearing my till go ka-ching.

I’ve a pretty good team with me, particularly my “children” aka my part timers.

I think it’s an age thing.

They are so full of energy, prancing here and there.

They are Y.O.U.N.G.

Come 5pm – I’m drained already. Especially if it was a busy day.

I’m old. Officially old.

I have my Phuket pictures!! Finally.

I don’t think I’m gonna bore everyone with an entry solely on my trip.

Will just give you guys a run through ok.

( most of you would probably have seen all my pics on FB )

                 room with a view!

              that's where we eat our breakfast everyday.

              this is just one of the 5 pools ok!

          our delicious and yummylicious dinner!

         another yummy dinner - roast duck *slurp*

       at the beach.

        we're just camwhoring la...

         this is my kind of "heaven"

Oh, I’m leaving for HK in January next year.

For a holiday – a winter holiday!

I’m excited!! YAY!!

Not because of the trip there but because of a secret that I’m dying to expose to someone!!

It’s a secret surprise for someone and I’m trying really really hard not to breathe a word bout it!

Come to think of it, I’ll be flying off in bout 3 weeks time.

Less than that actually!

Yippee!!

Oh, Mother of Bims said that we will all go for a countdown party!

Hahahaha….

Not sure where yet but we wanna dance and have fun!

We’ll see.



I was at Zouk Out  last Sunday.

Armin is one helluva guy!

He’s Number One now and it’s no wonder, seriously.

Oh oh…I have pictures!

Hahahahaha….

         armin's playground - my kind of music.

         it's dawn and we can still smile...not bad la.

      we were so drained...but we're happy!!

My life is so mundane now that you cannot imagine.

I need something, someone to bring back the fire in me!!

It’s not that I don’t like my life now.

I do.

It’s just that…..i think I need more to life than just this.

We’ll see.

I think that’s my overused phrase.

TSK.

There’s honestly nothing to see la.

It’s all up to me.

It’s how I want my life to be and yeah, I’m not fighting hard for it.

BUT!

I’ m working on it!

2008 – a year where all the unexpecteds would be expected!

“How do you bounce back when REALITY batters your  belief system and love does not,

as promised, conquer all?“

I’m upset.

I’m at a phase where everything just seems to be out of place.

But I hung on. To dear life simply because I know it will pass.

Then, just this morning, I found out thru the hard way that sometimes,

being there for someone may not seem like a good idea.

*sigh*

I thought my life cannot get more shitty than now.

But I was wrong.

Something has to come up and somehow take my smile away.

As it is, my long awaited Jan trip has to be altered.

Then I have my work to think about. Nothing major but still…

I used to be this girl filled with life.

Somehow I can feel it ebbing away.

Slowly but surely.

All that I’ve strongly believed in all these years seem to be proven otherwise.

Time and time again, reality would crush whatever hope I have left in me.

Now I feel like I’ve played a part in making someone else’s life miserable.

Making her feel insecure when there’s seriously nothing to worry about.

It was never my intention to cause any trouble.

I would do anything to make the situation better – and yes, this include

retreating or withdrawing from the circle.

Or maybe, on a less serious note – let it slide naturally.  

Never mind.

I still have a plan to fall back on – next year.

When all else fails, I would just leave everything behind and embark on life’s journey.

That’s when you all really know that I’ve reached my threshold for all the shit

that has been going on way too long in my life, here in Singapore.

Well, at least Mr. Wallaby made me laugh through out this lousy morning.

He and his silly antics.

Thank you. *hugs*

So depressing, my entry!  

OK.

Enough of “ eh, what happened to your blog ar? “

So, here I am – penning down a short one to clear the air.

*laugh*

I’ve been wanting to post an entry solely about my holiday in Phuket.

But alas, I’m still waiting for my photos to reach me!

It will come soon so must wait patiently ok.

Life hasn’t changed much since I came back from my hols.

Same ole same ole and part of me resent that.

Nothing major besides my visit to the TCM to get my left shoulder fixed.

Thanks to The Sister, I sort of “wounded” my left back shoulder and it hurts like hell.

I’ve no choice but to leave my fate into the hands of a China lady – supposedly a TCM doctor.

But she was really quite good.

She has the strength of an ox man….

Result of that visit : a much better and relaxed left shoulder and 13 cups of blue black marks on my back.

I did the cup suction thingy and it was really painful ok!

Though I have the disgusting marks on my back, it really helped release a lot of stress off my body.

Pretty good stuff I would say.

Oh, Mr. Big is back and you know what, he’s not my Mr. Big anymore.

Can’t explain it in words but he’s not the man I once loved so very much.

It’s sad isn’t it?

When you realized that a man you once loved is no longer the same man.

Change is inevitable, I know that.

But to have it shoved to your face is a whole different thing.

He is still the man I will always love and yet he’s not the man I used to love.

It’s like I love him but I’m not in love with him.

But I’ll always love him. Hmmm…..

I’m not talking sense am I ?

See….I can’t put it into words…*laugh*

Anyways, we’re good like now.

Nothing beats having a friendship you know you can count on.

So….. I shall rename him.

Hmmm….Mr. Alpha Male! Yeah….that suits him just right.

This was supposed to be a short entry. Damn…

Well, I shall compile the Phuket pics asap and post an entry on it ok!

Meanwhile, be patient because patience is a virtue.

*chuckle*

*tired*

I think this would be a short entry.

Just wanna try out new fonts again.

I like this font though. Nice.

Just got home not too long ago.

Was out with Mother of Bims’ team for dinner – at Newton.

Food was not too bad, the usual but we all thought it was rather expensive.

Could have gotten a lot more out of that chunk of money we spent.

Oh well…at least we had good company.


After we finished dinner, the girls and I didn’t feel like going home.

So, we – Mother of Bims, Giggly Bims, Bitchy Bims and I decided to head for desserts.

We headed to Cartel at Siglap – ice creams!

Silence is definitely not in our vocab when the 4 of us get together!

We were laughing so much and as usual, Bitchy Bims would somehow find a reason to be bitchy.

 Ikea’s sending our stuff tomorrow! YAY!

The Sister and I  will have a “new” room tomorrow.

Miss Energizer is coming over for lunch then she will help us out for a bit.

*yawn*

I’m sleepy. And tired.

So I’m gonna call it night soon.

Oh, I’m approaching the SIXTH COFFEE FREE DAY!!

Darn proud of myself!

Plus, the people around me are sooo…..supportive.

So much so that I would feel bad if I drink even a drop of it….damn…

As all of you would know by now,

for some reasons – I sometimes lose everything that I’ve typed while posting an entry.

The Brother got sick of hearing me whine and cuss whenever it happens.

So, he strongly recommend that I type out my blog on a word document.

Then copy and paste it on my blog.

That way, I can save my entry as I type – simply because my entries are always so damn long!

Then I realized that now, I can use different fonts!!

I like all these weird fonts actually. Makes it feel like I’m really writing in my personal journal.

Hehehe….

Anyways, I’m a lot better today.

Probably because I sweat like there’s no tomorrow.

Did my Amazing Race with The Sister today and it was blardy hot man!

I could hear my feet screaming out for help whenever we stop at cross junctions.

The sun was blazing and I swear I actually felt faint for a moment.

Then after it all ended, we came right back to Spore and decided to head to Ikea.

We went to the one at Tampines and as expected, it was packed.

Shopping wasn’t too bad because that place is quite huge actually.

We decided to revamp our room so we bought new cupboards and stuff.

Oh, new curtains too! We decided that we want layering.

So we fixed on red and black curtains – those linen looking ones.

I put up the curtains all by myself and I’m damn proud!

First, I did the hemp – ironed some funny looking tape in between layers.

Then I took down the old curtains.

Then I looped the new ones in – alternating the red and black loops.

Voila! I have new sexy and hot looking curtain hanging in my room!

A room where I share with The Sister –--- bleah…

Our new cupboards will come on Tues so that would be our big day.

That’s when we will have a make over for our room!

But then again, I’ll be flying off on Wed so only one night of indulgence and I’m off!

Then again, I’ll have something to look forward to while I unwillingly board the plane back from Phuket.

Oh, my dear Mr. Torres wants to be known as Mr. Wallaby now.

He requested the change early this afternoon when he called me from the OZ desert!

I’m actually quite surprised that they have reception out there in the desert.

He's damn funny. What he thought would be sort of a vacation turned out 
to be a sun-roasting session , stucked with a guy who talks a lot of cock.  
He’s quite a busybody – wanting to know if I mentioned him in my blog. Tsk….

Told him that I would post one entry solely about him – but dunno when la..

I’m very sure he’s waiting to read what I really think about him!

Don’t worry ok….there’s nothing bad to write bout you except songs of praises!

Well…we’ll see how it goes.

I’ve to let it come to me then I’ll start typing away.

Alright, it’s time to let my body rest after a hard day’s work

I’m gonna hit the sack and see what’s in store for me tomorrow.

I don’t fall sick easily.

In fact, almost never to be honest.

But when I do, it’s like now – miserable.

I’m miserable!!! *sob*

As if that’s not bad enough, I have to take another 4 types of medication!

But I’m determined.

Simply because my holiday is next week and I definitely do not want to be sick then!

I think it’s all my fault la.

Two nights ago, the skies were so red and the wind was howling like mad.

I opened the balcony door and let the “breeze” into the room while The Brother and I

went about doing our stuff.

It was a really good night – I finished my book with the “breeze” blowing.

Who would have expect the both of us to wake up the next morning with a super sore throat.

Then followed by bad flu and body aches.

Which brings us here now, suffering for enjoying our “breeze”.

It’s The Sister’s birthday today.

We had dinner opposite our place – no choice la.

The Brother and I are sick – we went to the doc opposite so conveniently ate there as well.

It was good though.

We were all looking at this super black cat, kitten to be exact.

Damn naughty man. Keep gnawing at ppl’s hands and playfully scratch with it’s paws.

That reminded The Brother something that happened to him when he was really young.

The Brother : u know ah, last time at Mama’s house there’s this cat.

The Sis and I : mmhmm…

The Brother : I backside itchy la. Took my Play Mobil’s fireman hose and tie round it’s neck

                      then act like it’s a leash. Pull the fella along as I walk.

The Sis and I : then? *giggles*

The Brother : ( with a matter of factly look ) the fella scratch me lor….

The Sis and I : you’re damn dumb lor! Serve you right! (laughed loudly )

The Brother : young ma…how I know? I bet Ling will put this on her blog.

                      All the stupid stuff I do.

Sure as hell, I would. I just did!

Muahahahahahahaha!

That’s my siblings for you.

We talk about the corniest stuff ever and laugh at the silliest things.

But we don’t want it any other way.

We’re good like that and we love it!

Oh, Mr. Torres called while I was having dinner.

He’s away at OZ, doing his country proud. Hehehe…

I thought it was really sweet of him to call from so far away.

But then again, he has always been sweet so yeah….

He said he’s burnt so I wanna see how burnt is he when he comes home next week.

OK OK….I can feel my medication slowly taking effect.

I took the drowsy one. And it’s creeping into me.

I shall go sleep early for once and let my body heal.

Good night and sleep tight!

I don’t like my pills.

Though it’s a really damn small pill, I still don’t like it.

I’m not sure if I’m over sensitive but I feel breathless after taking the pills.

I would pant at the slightest chore – even when picking up a pen I dropped.

I would experience palpitations and start to feel queasy all over.

Maybe it’s my imagination.

I jotted it down in my medical journal anyways.

I’ll just monitor a few more days and see how it goes.

It’s past 3am and I can’t sleep.

Hmmm….not too sure what’s keeping me awake.

Oh, remember my book spree last week?

Yeah…I finished a book today.

And it was good!

I was laughing to myself most part of the book.

So I look kinda silly on the bus – which I obviously didn’t realize then.

Gonna start a drama mama one – by Virginia Andrews. Hah!

Can you beat that?

I always feel like a teenager all over again whenever I read her books.

I started reading her book like what….when I was 12? 13?

And now that I’m approaching 30….damn…I’m still choosing her books off the shelves.

I’ll be flying off in exactly a week’s time and I’m elated!

No mobile for 7 days sounds really good to me!

I’ll take lots of pics ok…then I’ll post it here.

Oh well…. I have to make myself go to sleep soon.

I have errands to run tomorrow.

Plus, I’ll be having dinner at Yummy Mummy’s place – I can see Javier!

I don’t want to look like a panda and scare him. Hehe..

Alright…good nite and sleep tight!  

I am approaching the “more than a week” line.

I was just thinking to myself,

“I’d better post an entry before any of my ardent fans demand that I do it”

Then, last night : Miss LOL text me “ update your blog soon ok”

Hahahaha…!

I survived the week! YAY!!

It was indeed a pretty tiring week.

Work was stressful but pretty satisfying so nothing much to complain.

It’s amazing how time flies because I remember last Sunday vividly.

I was having a really good time at Miss Foodie’s place, enjoying dinner and good company. Even Miss LOL joined us too!

And today is another Sunday!

I just got back from dinner.

Had steamboat at Golden Mile with Miss Alpha Female and her Significant Other.

It was really good actually.

This would be the steamboat place where Mr Big and his parents religiously patronize every Sunday.

Finally! I tasted it and I liked it.

Oh, someone told me he wants to be known as Mr Torres in case I blogged bout him.  

Hahaha…so yes, Mr Torres it shall be!

As shameless as he is, he’s sweet.

He came pick me up from work really really late on Monday – 1am.

And we went for bak chor mee at Bedok – as usual, we got lost and needed to use the map to guide as along. Hahahaha!

Then I asked Mr Golf what does he want to be known as.

He answered, Mr Woodcock! So he’s now known as Mr Woodcock.

Hahahahaha….sounds really….hard….and stale….and cock…hmmm…

Anyways, I was out with Mr Woodcock today.

He needed to buy some stuff. And talk.

So we walked Orchard Road like some bounty hunter!

And yes, we bought stuff.

We chatted – bout life. And love. And everything else under the sun.

It’s been a while since we last sat down and chatted.

And it was good. *smile*

I have learned that in life, you don’t need much. You only need friends.

I know it’s an understatement but just wanted to say it. *shrugs*

Friends who would never judge you.

Friends who would stand by you come rain or shine.

Friends who would slap the truth on your face even though it hurts.

Most importantly, friends who would love you as you are.

I’m thankful.

Not only for having friends like the above.

But also for having siblings who fits the description above.

Seriously.

And that’s all I need to get through this life. *smile*